The Diary of Sarah Ferguson
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[01 Feb 2012|02:30pm]
Sometimes, love is just enough to save you and destroy you all at once.
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[29 Sep 2007|12:14am]

I used to love them so much
They were all so cute. I remember everyone used to call them "little girls omg" and I would defend them because I thought they were SO cute XD

I remember I got to meet them when I was like 7?
I went to this concert with my mom, her friend, and her friend's daughter. And we met them and I couldn't speak

I miss that
I think I'mma go see them again in a few months ahaha
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Honestly, the quote is all I can think of to say right now [23 Sep 2007|10:21am]
[ mood | confused ]

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right. I hope you had the time of your life...

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[16 Sep 2007|03:14pm]
just because i can...

1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Place of residence:
4. What makes you happy:
5. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. Do you read my lj:
7. If you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment? Who is it?:
10. Favourite place to be:
11. Favourite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Weird thing about you:
14. Do farts make you laugh:


1. A film: 2. A book:
3. A band, a song and an album:


1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself: 
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UPDATEOHMIGOSH [15 Sep 2007|08:34pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

It's been a while huh? Sorry. My life has been so hectic lately!!!

Hurray! I am so stoaked for next weekend though. :]

I'm taking a train (new experience for me >.< I mean, I've taken BART but never a TRAIN) up to Chico to see my friend Katie and to (MAYBE) go see Brighten play a show.

I'm pretty stoaked. I honestly love it there. It's so pretty and it's so alive all the time. I love everything about being there. I always am so happy when I'm up there :]

I can't wait for that.

Other then that, my life has been devoted to school, school, and more school!!!

I have a 5 page paper to go write now on how working with homeless children and groing bonds with them relates to American Government. -.-

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[11 Sep 2007|10:14pm]
[ mood | amused ]

a; art is my passion in life.
b; bees makes me smile
c; car-rides calm me down
d; doodles tend to decorate my notes/binders
e; existentialism
f; friends are like family to me
g; grunge annoys me
h; hippies
i; imagination runs most of my thoughts
j; jalopy go far
k; killing in the name
l; living life to it's most
m; making people happy
n; new hoodies
o; ocean pacific tee and a bloody knee
p; Penguins!!!
q; questioning everything
r; reading many many books
s; singing random songs at random moments.
t; terminals in LAX
u; ukuleles
v; verizon "IN-Plan"
w; wishing upon stars
x; x-mais
y; youth
z; zebras

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[06 Sep 2007|10:45pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Pass me another bottle hunny, the Jager's so sweet...Collapse )
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[06 Sep 2007|07:02am]
[ mood | happy ]

I got my best friend back

I'll post more later because I owe an update

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[25 Aug 2007|02:01pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Yesterday was in short: Epic.

You should probably read this

Yes, I was a part of that. I left after the food fight started though. I did not want to get arrested, thank you very much. It was supposed to be a PEACEFUL event, but some dumb kids had to ruin what we planned. Whatever though, it caught the school (and about 9-10 CHP cars) attention.

I went to Chico at like 2 yesterday, stopped by my friend Katie's apartment, then headed to Paradise to see MSC, Dizmas, and FF5. That was an amazing show :]

Though, a friend of mine named Gabrielle kind of made it awkward? I don't know why but she did NOT want me there. Same with her friend Rachel, they were both against it. So when I walked in and said hey, they kind of brushed me off and just moved to the other side of the church building. I could careless if she's mad, it's that she had to make it awkward and be rude to my friends/brother.

Whateverrr though. I had fun, I got a picture of this girl I know dancing with FF5 on my phone, otherwise I'm picture less. Stupid missing camera...

I miss Chico already though. I honestly can say I love it there. If I don't get into Art College in Chicago, that's where I'm going.

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[22 Aug 2007|09:37pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

If you go to my high should see this...Collapse )

I am for the first time in a long time TRUELY HAPPY

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hahaha [22 Aug 2007|04:05pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Dr. Dre is suing Death Row Records over the rights to The Chronic.

lolol good for him
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Across The Universe? [19 Aug 2007|09:52am]
[ mood | calm ]

That movie looks absolutely beautiful and I cannot wait to see it.

I feel a change coming, a big one. I don't know if I'm ready for it. Life's been too perfect lately, it's starting to scare me.

Katie is going back to Chico on Friday, I don't know what I'm going to do without her.

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Confused? [11 Aug 2007|08:35pm]
[ mood | confused ]

"Scarborough Fair/Canticle" By- Simon & Garfunkel is a song everyone should have on thier mp3 players.

I know this sounds horrible, but, I cannot stand my father.

I don't hate him, because I don't hate anyone or anything. I say I do sometimes, but, i never really mean it. I just...he makes everything seem so much worse.

My dad isn't exactly the "warmest" guy you'll ever meet. He is at first, like...maybe the first month you meet him? But afterwards he tends to stop trying and it makes it feel like he doesn't care. Lately I haven't seen him much and when I do, it just seems like nothing can make him happy.

My dad is a very depressed man. He's an alcoholic, not the violent or angry kind rather...the very very sad kind. My mom divorced him about...4 years ago? Yeah, 4 years ago pretty much, maybe a little less. dad really isn't over it because, as he has told me many times while he's been drinking, he is still in love with her and would go back at any minute.

I feel really bad for the guy. He's lost so much over the past few years. He just recently went bankrupt, his best friend Bob is slowly losing it and we don't think he'll be alive much longer, he lost my mom, and he lost my older brother's relationship.

He is just...he's not okay. I know I should be there for him, because he's about to lose his girlfriend he's had the past two years, but I really don't know if I have the strength to go through this all with him again. He needs medical help for his liver and heart from all the smoking and drinking he's done but he just won't get it and continues to smoke & drink. I don't know, I've talked to him and tried but he doesn't listen.

I think I've lost him to the alcohol he's come to love =/

I don't know, I'm not really sad, rather....I feel angry&betrayed?

Everything that was stable in my life last year is now gone and I just don't want to accept that it's all gone. I'll be fine, sure, but accepting it might take a while.

PS - Another song you should all listen to; "Winter" by- Joshua Radin. Anything, really, by Joshua Radin is amazing actually...
PPS- Final Fantasy VII: Dirge of Cerberus isn't as good as everyone had hyped it up to be. I prefer the others a lot more =/

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[09 Aug 2007|06:31pm]
[ mood | calm ]

I  know many of you have read the book "The Perks Of Being A Wallflower". I love it. For those on my FL that haven't read it, you need to. I love it so much that those who I know from meeting in person that have never read it, I will give my copy to and go buy myself a new one after. I've done this a good seven or eight times now, but, it's worth every penny to share Charlie with everyone I meet.

On the first page there is this quote, and, everytime I read it I just re-fall in love. It says: "So, this is my life. And I want you to know I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that can be."

And this one makes me smile too: "After the song finished, I said something. 'I feel infinite.' And Sam and Patrick looked at me like I said the greatest thing they ever heard. Because the song was that great and because we all really paid attention to it. Five minutes of a lifetime were truely spent, and we felt young in a good way."

I think I love that book and the character of Charlie so much because I relate so well. Being the Wallflower, the shy kid in the back who sees and hears everything but never repeats it. I understand the feeling of sitting in a car and screaming at the top of my lungs as songs like "Landslide" by Fleetwood Mac or "Asleep" by The Smiths play quietly. I understand the feeling he describes about being infinite and I can honestly say Stephen Chobosky wrote it out perfectly.

This book can always make me happy. It's one of those books that you take to a coffee shop with you in the winter and where you get a big cup of your favorite drink and curl up on the coffee shop's couch with the book, a mix on your ipod of good music to read to, and your hot drink. And when you get home from the shop, your nose and cheeks are rosey from the cold but that makes you realize that you are human and that you are only that.

I love how this book makes me feel.

I've been thinking a lot lately.

I have made a lot of bad choices the past few years. I've gotten involved with some bad things that I shouldn't have been involved with and I can't begin to fathom why I did the things I did. I used to be really involved in the party scene(as you all know) and known for the way I could chugg down anything(Jager mainly), and, I'm not proud of that. So I've quit, changed, and become a new person. I've found something better than the drugs and alcohol.

I've started over. I've pretty much given my life over to God and I'm trying to live how he wants me to; I may stumble and make mistakes, but, I am young. I will make mistakes. That's why God's forgiveness is such a blessing because I am probably the farthest thing from perfect.

I've never felt so comfortable with myself in my entire life.

I'm back to the old me before the alcohol and drugs. I'm back into theater now :] I've been doing tech rehersals all week because I'm working Crew for the play City Of Angels at school. And, we basically have been doing nothing. But tomorrow we start inventory and that is NO BUENO AT ALL D:

But I love the people and I love it in general.

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=]] [29 Jul 2007|11:23pm]

It's my birthday soon :]

So here's my list:

2- MCR Cupid Hoodie Size M
3- Scrubs Seasons 1 & 2 on DVD
4- Plane ticket to Cleveland, Ohio D:
5- UO Rugby Stripe Cardigan - Blue/Ivory
6- Metal Rose Ring - Size 7
7- UO Sunglasses - i don't care what color x]
8- Moneyyyy :]

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It's hard to argue when you won't stop making sense [29 Jul 2007|09:47am]
[ mood | content ]

I leave wedensday for SWC and I cannot wait.

I'm scared to start school. I'm going to be the "new kid". There's only like 100 kids in the graduating class and I'm like, skjsalfhasfhafs i don't know any seniors but Cat. Ughhhh whatever, I'll meet people...or....something.

I found a hoodie I've been looking to buy for so long. I've found it in XS  and XL usually. But, I finally found a M. I'd barely have to alter it if I got it, and, I really want it? Sadly it's 50$ and I have like....30$? I'm hoping it's still avaliable next week =D

I need to go pack though

I love living out of a suitcase. The feeling that comes along with that is so amazing. When you're home for a day then you leave again, only awake at home for maybe 2 hours. One before your short nap and one after before you leave.

I miss that lifestyle. Me and Dad were pro at it.

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Go back to school the right way... [28 Jul 2007|12:05am]

Colors Avaliable&Used: Black, Red, Yellow, Goldenrod, Maroon

Can I get some opinions on this?
Also, would lyrics make it look goddy?

Give me your opinions people
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[21 Jul 2007|02:00pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

If you happen to have the CD Instant Karma, I'd love if you could zip it and upload it to megaupload or mediafire then share that link with me :]

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HCT 6/30 and Warped Mt.View - 7/1 [17 Jul 2007|10:31am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

I never posted about Warped did I?

Huh, strange, I usually do. Well, I guess I will now.

Honestly? I liked the past years a lot more than this year. Kristine and I went to Honda Civic...oh...I need to talk about that too.

Honda Civic Tour
Alright. So Kristine and I got there pretty much mid-afternoon and met up with Jessica and Kayla and Tim and a tonnn of other people that were with them. We pretty much sat in line for hella days, basically didn't even get early entry even though we were told we would, and once we got in we got on barricade and waited.

Cobra Starship played and I re-fell in love with Gabe Saporta's whiteass. Seriously, no white man should dance like he does.

So after their set I was feeling sick. I started getting sweaty and couldn't breathe and right as Paul Wall's techies were finishing up, I passed out. See, this is what you need to understand. We were in this outdoor venue, right? Well, the right side got shade and the sun was beating down on the left side. I was on the left side and they refused to give us water. So, I passed out.

I woke up and Paul Wall was playing and they were carrying me out. I saw Lauren, and passed out again, woke up and I was backstage. I was hella delierious, I couldn't even remember where I was for a while. I thought the EMT was Kayla's boyfriend Tim because he seriously looked like Tim's clone, same glasses and hair and everything.

So they're checking my blood pressure and it's low and I'm about to pass out again when I hear a HELLA familiar voice go "What the fuck is wrong here?"

And, no lies, there in front of me stood Mark Hoppus and Travis Barker. I was so out of it when I got to talk to them, but it was Mark and Travis. They're like, founders of what I am today. The reason I met Erin and Alex. 

So I met them in my half-aware state and then they left. The Academy Is... were all sitting backstage chatting and the EMTs were like, "Do you know who they are?" and I was like "Well duh! The mothafuckin Academy is...! I love them!" and like, I was the only one backstage that wasn't supposed to be there so everyone kept staring.

They let me go back right before TAI played, so I hopped back into the crowd feeling better and I all throughout TAI's set I "moshed" my way up to the barricade again. I got my spot back after +44 played. Got Mark's pick. Fall Out Boy played, but in my opinion +44 and Cobra had the best sets. OH BUT, LOL @ ME GETTING ON THE SCREEN DURING GOLDEN AND NOT KNOWING UNTIL DIANA'S FRIEND TOLD ME. ahahahha I had my eyes closed that whole song, oh god, I must've looked like such a douche.

Got home at like 1, finally went to bed at around 2.30 after we both showered and shit.


Got up at 6.30, got ready with Kristine. We opted for wearing shorts because it was going to be hot out, and it was a good choice even though for the first bit of Warped I looked like a whore.

Went to Ivanes at like 8, left her house at 8.30-ish after we picked up her bros and all. Got to MtnView, grabbed some coffee, and met up with my soulmate for a few to give her coffee.

Went in, headed for the sign. Saw that I wasn't really interested in anyone, so I lurked the merch area a little. Found Lauren, hungout a little, left and went on a dubhunt with Ivane & Kristine. Re-metup with Lauren, went to go see Circa Survive. Lauren and I stood in back and talked about sexingup Anthony Green and smoking him out. After Circa, we left and went on another Dub hunt. We didn't want to see anyone until Playradioplay! was going on so we just kinda walked around the merch area and made fun of all the merch kids we thought looked weird. My American Heart is greedy with their weed, ahaha. Lying and saying you don't know when someone is rolling a fatty joint right next to you is never smarrrrt.

We went to get a spot at PRP!, saw Meg&Dia's last half of their set. Diana saw me from across the venue, That gave me a smile. Watched PRP! played, cutest boy everrrr. Dan is just adorable.

Left to go Dub hunt somemore, got a tobacco blunt cinnamon flavoured. It was disappointing. Met All Time Low, got their EP and a shirt. Went and saw Cute, got called a whore by an 11 year-old boy in the crowd. Decided I felt too old at Cute's sets ahaha. Met up with Diana after FF5's set, and we went to go see Paramore and we were going to go see All Time Low together. But, my ride made me leave early so I didn't get to see either of them.

Didn't get sunburnt, got home, and all in all it was a good day. Not as good as the year before, but it was still a good day.

I'm going to San Francisco on Wedensday with Joey. He's taking me Birthday shopping!!! =]
My birthday is in 21 dayyyys. I have to do all this shit early though cause I start school before my birthday comes and I am not allowed to go places during school =/ only weekend concerts and A FEW weekday ones.


oh and, 2 weeks from today I get to go to SWC Monterey :] Yayyyyyy

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[16 Jul 2007|12:06pm]
[ mood | excited ]



I won Something Corporate: Live At The Ventura for 5$ on Ebay and only had to pay 2$ shipping on it. That pretty much made my day. If you know me at all, you know I have an unhealthy and undying obsession with Andrew McMahon. Seriously? Cried when I heard he had cancer. He's like a God to me.

So, naturally, when an ex-friend STOLE my DVD and then "lost it", I flipped out. I've been missing it lately so I had to reorder it when I saw how good of a price that is.

Oh yeah and I want it so I can force Diana to watch it with me while we tour x] Along with our Scrubs DVDs

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